Hi Everyone! I came across a blog entry entitled "Wabi Sabi Monsters" that reminded me of a couple of conversations our Mystery group had--the discussion of "Wabi Sabi" (the Japanese artform celebrating the beauty of imperfection) and our exploration of what souls incarnated on earth as monsters come to learn and teach. The blog entry really impacted me and I wanted to share it with all of you. If you have time, post your comments after reading it! Blessings, Nancy
Link to Wabi Sabi Monsters Blog Entry
Nancy,
ReplyDeleteBlessings and love to you, Nancy! Thank you a million times for sharing this! It is timely and much needed for my angry and bitter heart today. If i can 'quick share' with you all, today marks the 11th year since the death of a woman I was with for quite a while. She was much younger, and it only made it worse. She would have been 33 now. Some years I deal with it much better, this is not one of those years. I often see one of the people who was present at the time of her death, and who I argue could have prevented it or taken part in saving her. Instead, this person only added to the events that led up to her death. I see her come in and out of the jail I work in on more drug charges and assaults and general ne'er-do-welling. I often double check if she has open warrants so I can advise the officers and she will be picked up. It's petty, but it's a legal way for me to feel as though she bears some responsibility for what she did and did not do and was never held accountable for.
After reading this, I realize this behavior of mine needs to stop. I won't stop doing my job, and if there are warrants, I will find them - it's what I do. I will, however, turn my rejoicing at this occurance to compassion and not celebrate her lacking. I don't know if I will ever reach the point of sending love to her, but I will break the cycle of dispair and anger and blame. If that woman could shake the hand of the good in that monster, surely I can not wish ill to the living monster in my life.
Thank you again, Nancy. Thank you all.
Namaste
(and yes, I realize that waking up this morning on the anniversary, feeling angery and bitter, that the horrible pain in my Sacral spine locking my back and limiting any movement due to pain is NOT coincidence. Thank you, root chakra for yelling at me. Clearing energy is welcome!)
wow. Over the years, I have carried a great deal of anger at others. At one point in my life, I asked the man that I was dating to marry me. He said No. Since I lived next door to him, I was able to see his comings and goings and that certainly helped to fuel my anger. One day, I saw him walk into his flat with another woman.
ReplyDeleteI was devastated and so pissed that I actually thought that I could physically harm him. I did not and I was humbled by the power of my emotions. I had no idea how over powering they could be. About 5 years ago, he found me after 20+ years of no contact and asked if I was happy in my life.
I was happy that I could say that I was happy. I am so grateful that he had said no so many years ago.........